This weekend I purchased my textbook for my summer class: 1100+ pages on ASP .NET development for “professionals.” I have six months of java under my belt. This does not make me a professional, just an ambitious amateur. This future class is adding to my current pressure–that of my final Exam–causing me to take a serious look at what I am doing now and what my goals are.

Normally, I think this wouldn’t be a huge problem. While I would be worried and tense, I have ways of coping. But all these concerns are occuring around the 9th. This anniversary marks seven years without my dad. Usually, all my mental energy is directed at coping with grief, not with school crap.